I Miss You

I miss you because the night frightens me
I miss you because I can’t remember why I don’t miss you
I miss you because the sun isn’t shining anymore like how it was when we were talking
I miss you because all that you said is echoing over and over in my mind
I miss you because the smell of your hair is lost to the smell of dinner
I miss you because the colour of your fingernails is washed away into the seas of misery
I miss you because the milk I drink is as white as your teeth
I miss you because I don’t know what else to do but to wait for you
I miss you because at work people don’t remember what my favourite movie of all time is
I miss you because at home the parents think I’m the worst child in the world
I miss you because you are you and I am me and we were meant to be but I don’t know anything anymore
I miss you because you are always on my mind
And yet I tell myself not to miss you
To keep moving forward
And yet my pillow is wet from tears
And my heart is breaking into pieces
Yearning
Waiting
And imploding from the coldness of the world
When the sun of my world disappears for the night
I miss you because you are all that and so much more
I miss you

Poem for 14/11

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It has been, what, a month?
You didn’t give me anything
You once pulled out a rose
And it stood for how long you would love me

It has been, what, a year?
You didn’t give me anything
You once recorded “Good morning sunshine”
And it was in a cassette player, on my table

It has been, what, five years?
You didn’t give me anything
You once put a jacket over me
And it was warm and lovely and I brought it home

It has been, what, ten years?
You didn’t give me anything
You once kissed me goodbye
And that was the last thing you gave me

Your flower was plastic, you fool
The player can only play your cassette now, you dork
Your jacket’s too big for me still, you idiot
And I miss you so much. Oh so much.

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