Haiku for 23/9

You tell me to lean
Forward, into your embrace
But your lips stay cold

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Siren

I once liked a girl
Who was beautiful
On the inside
And on the outside
And I could never understand her

We would go out on a mind trip
To lands unknown
To accompany Daniel and Luce
As they made their way back to heaven
And back down to Earth again

I would sit down and think
What would she like me to do
Should I take more initiative
Is she mad at me
I never knew

The nights would come
And I would turn into a monster
Against the world and against myself
And she would try to comfort me
And she would fail over and over

The scars grew daily
As I woke up with little recollection
And I would try to talk to her
Hope she would laugh
So that I could have a chance of laughing

And mistakes were made
I was a candle willing to be burnt out
At the whims of the people I loved and cared for
And I burnt myself out
Because she wanted me to start anew

Now that the flame is gone
And I have forgotten all feelings towards her
The memories reside in my mind
Everything that I want to remember
Locked away in silence

And so I say to you, siren
That one day you pine for another
And I will pine for another
And we will remember those days
And we will not regret that Thursday

Once A Time

There was once a time
When you were all I thought about
All I dreamt about
I thought about the things we could do

There was once a time
When I could only wake up to the sound of your voice
The scent of your body
I held you closer every time

There was once a time
When the birds would call out your name
Your name that I screamed in bed
I would call you just to see you smile

There was once a time
When you would say ‘I love you’
‘Because forever would be too short a time to spend with you’
And I could only nod so furiously while pressing against your chest

There was once a time
When all of this would happen
And yet I see you leaving with your baggages
There will not be another time

You Would

I would wait for you at the steps
You would come in your bright yellow car
I would call out and laugh at you
As you arrived wearing goggles

I would sit in your car
You would play your favourite songs
I would sing my heart out and you would chuckle
As you drove us down to the restaurant

I would take your soft, strong hand
You would lead me out of your car
I would skip a little beside you and you would yell
As you told me not to do that in heels

We would sit at the table
They would serve us dinner and dessert
We would laugh the whole night and they would stare
As we shared jokes about jellies and horses

I would stand outside my house
You would carefully close the car doors
I would watch you walk closer and you would smile
As you pulled me in closer

I would sit at the window
You would sit in the driveway waving back
I would wildly wave and you would grin
As the day ended with you

I would lie in bed
You would be in yours
I would try to keep you up and you would whisper
As midnight approached

But now

I will be a black dress
You will be in a white suit
I will try to keep my tears in and you will pass me by
As the coffin lowers into the ground

 

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Yes this is my first time writing in a female perspective and I’m pretty sure a number of you would have violent objections to the words I used. Go ahead and comment them all!

 

Or maybe no one will read this.