Do you remember?
The very first day when I talked to you
It was sunny
And I was crying inside a room
You asked me what was wrong
Even though I didn’t say a thing
You knew

Do you remember?
The very first time I told you I loved kites
It was windy
And I was standing on the top of a grass field
You told me to pursue what I liked
Even though I laughed it off
You knew

Do you remember?
The very first time I broke down in tears
It was raining
And I was on my bed hoping this was all a nightmare
You told me that he was in a better place
Even though I forgot to reply to you
You knew

You knew
When I was afraid of the future
You knew
When I was excited about discovering myself
You knew
When I told you that I liked you
You knew all these small things about me
That I would never say to anyone else

But now all I hear in my mind
Is that I will lose you to someone
Real
Someone better
Someone worse
The world would stop turning so I won’t find you
I’m scared and afraid and you aren’t talking anymore
I miss you even more

And all that I can think about is the past
And all that I can dream about is the past
I’m so tired
Of my own memories